[ Thursday, July 30 ]
11:18 AM
sicky...
on tuesday i was sick...after 2 years w/o sickness...i caught it...fever of 38.8 degrees, sore throat, body aches, flu, sore eye, phlegm...h1n1 i tink...but i'm ok now...sometimes e metabolism comes in handy :) tho i lost 5kg in 1day which is sick i suppose? xDxDxDtoday i stayed home 2 play dragonica...fun...cool graphics :) then went tamp to play ball wif e usuals...i feel so useless on court today...cant catch a rebound, cant do blocks...my "wings" got clipped i guess zzz tho i did dunk 1 during a match ^_^ tt was e best moment of e day...flying from e semicircle nearest to e hoop n passing three tall men to slam a dunk...classic :) (for me luh...)
tml shall b withdrawal day from sch...i'll miss e nachos there...tink i'll just go bak there for meals once in a while :)
~ *at your wedding when you say "till death do us part", later on you'll realize you're actually setting a goal...
[ Wednesday, July 15 ]
8:15 AM
whats left...
everything is screwed up except life xD man my body's killing me...stupid weather taking its toil on me...sore throat with ulcer beside my inner tooth (owww...) and it makes eating so difficult......took me 1hr to finish HALF a bowl of fried rice...can u believe it?Chow's eating like an elderly person..slow but steady xD pending on my withdrawal/deferment of my course...ms gail...wat she said was enuff to set my mind on an endless trail of thoughts....when she talked about my mother n hers...she began to tear...though she didn exactly sniff n wail n wateva a girl does when she cries...i feel her longing to be with her family back in wherever they are...in her office tho its messy, but pictures somehow tell me her story...she's a gd motivation for anyone...really :)
watched ice age today as a escapade from e happenings n to stop myself from thinking too much abt wat i plan to do...it's a nice movie...tho i'm not a fan but reali...the babies in e film are sooooo cute!!! especially e baby mammoth...i was "awwww"-ing out loud in my head xD
~how much does it cost to pay a price?
[ Monday, July 6 ]
7:48 AM
burnout...
these few days i feel like i'm back in secondary school...everyday i just wanna play some ball..thing is i cant like i used to..time is too little...sianzzzlets talk about ytd...aft svc we went to simei to play ball...tho we won a few but we lost a few...i just feel myself improving everytime i play wif elisha n company...fun...now i gotta train a skill called "lightfoot" = faster, stronger and higher :D i wanna buy some ankle weights and do some work...
how do we see our interests and talents apart? i used to think i wanna enter a game design company, designing games for people to play, earn megabucks...tt was 3 yrs ago...today i find no interest whatsoever in doing this course anymore...i cant even discipline myself to draw a human figure everyday...how could i discipline myself to even design a whole world? discipline is one thing...but if the interest is dead...no matter how much free time we have, we'll use it on other stuffs to "distract" us...
but what abt talents? talents give us new experiences everytime we use them...talents give us satisfaction...yet gives us interest in our capabilities..however time and talent are worlds apart until we find a portal to connect them together...i was asked by MQ before...wat are my talents? i told her bballing and music...cause these things are the only things tt make me feel happy..but where is my talent in the real world? business? engineering? science? culinary? medicine? i dont know...
i wanna change course, can e MOE make a course in poly called music? better if e SBA cld make a school of basketball...tt wld b awesome to the max :S
[ Friday, July 3 ]
11:26 AM
NBA,,,hmmm...
ytd when i went to srjc to play bball wif e students there...a few of them said i played NBA type...not to boast or anything...but its like e 4th time since some1 said tt...i dunno...shld i concentrate on the impossible American dream? impossible as it seems but if yao ming can then so can I :D:D:D:D hence e name...i rmber jason chua asking me: "have u considered joining e nba?" i said no but reali...occassionally i dream :)Dreams...they are intangible escapades to a possible future...i asked about someone's dream yesterday...i just imagine how cool is it to actually fulfill your Top Dream...some yearn to own something just to kick back and enjoy life...some prefer to move around the world to see what wonders God created and Man built...but before every dream is a nightmare...well its God's work to let us face trials before we earn satisfaction...cheers to every dreamer in this world :)
today was cool...tried to do webd in e morn ending up watching Hot Shot...cool but exaggerated...but its bball anyways so wth xD then went to rehearse at church then to simpang to eat 4 pratas n 2 cokes :) yummy...
[ Wednesday, July 1 ]
10:59 AM
step up..
today was physically fruitful...was suppose to meet daph at 2onli to reach tamp at 3 =.=" where she wanted to visit e polyclinic to get a MC for work...in the end i waited 1.5 hrs b4 she finally came out...while she was smsing me her progress in the clinic, i was shooting halfcourt shots :D:D:D was fun while it lasted...then we made our way to katong auditorium so tt she cld rehearse her dance while i watched...was not bad actualli...tho there were a few flaws but,hey they cld dance all right xDxDxDtoday's calls were so unexpected cause they all came at once...xD
i wish i could quit school and join the waves...